i love peeking at other people’s online diary whether i know them personally or not. i hop around and read their insights, nodding or shaking my head in affirmation or negation.  once in a while i join groups to mingle, sometimes just to get something free — scrapbook items, fonts mp3.  But most of the time, i only lurk.  Secretly sharing their sentiments about life.  I read them and the messages that people leave behind – until the time I get tired of the site and start looking for something else.  Or maybe something fresh comes along the way, which makes me accidentally drift away.

The addiction started last month.  I am PeX member.  I dont leave messages regularly but I find it helpful when the need arises.  One boring day (little neptune’s asleep and i have no one to play with) while surfing PeX i found myself reading a topic about people leaving their favorite sites.  Then I saw this blog link. Of all the links there, I was really wondering why i clicked on it.  Anyways I clicked on it and the addiction began. Jon Cabron is my newspaper and coffee.  Everytime I go to work, I only open two sites, both of which are my mail accounts but now I’m reading three.  Everyday I wait for new stories — actually more of rants. I wanted to leave a message but Im afraid of being bullied heheh…so I just read…then laugh or feel bad depending on how the main character feels on that certain blog.  he has an undeniably wide vocabulary and and an impressive imagination - he can turn an ordinary everyday story into a full-length movie.

But one thing i really enjoy about the blog was his ability to vent out all his anger.  I cant do that.  Even if people dont know me and I give them code names here, I feel that posting anything against them will uncover my identity.  Yup, im coward.  And I find heroes in people who are exactly my opposite, kahit man lang sa blog.  He’s like Tulfo.  Just this morning, i wanted to kill someone here at the office but instead of doing so I just went to his blog and read stuff.  Parang gusto kong magsumbong. I dont know him personally but I feel that he’s the only one who has the authority to be mean.  ewan ko ba. Anyways, I felt a li’l better after.

basta pag masama loob ko magbabasa na lang ako ng blog nya.